Just 20 minutes before we start the big day of travel. I feel like I need to write  out my feelings so I don’t forget when this is just a blip in our story. It’s a jumble, but that’s exactly how I feel right now. Jumbled.

I woke up this morning with my heart pounding in my throat and my stomach doing flip flops. Wake up has actually been like that for over a week now. Anxiety. I’ve faced it before. I know it’s temporary, but it’s been taking its toll on my body during this last week. Once I take the time to get out of my head and start “doing” the flutters subside.

Yesterday was a day of calm and relaxation. House was cleared. All was packed. We soaked up time with close friends. My mind and body needed that.

Now we finally start making progress towards what we’ve waited so long for. 24 hours of travel. Three planes. Four airports. Then a new home.

I’ll spend my time watching shows and movies to take my mind off the anxiety I always feel when flying. Hopefully there’s some sleep in there.

I think my biggest fear is losing bags. It’s just stuff. I know it’s fine if it goes missing. But considering we have so little left, I’m clinging tight to what’s left.

So pray for our journey. Pray anxiety is gone. Pray all bags make it. Pray for safety. So far God’s been so good to us, I can see his hand in all of it.

Ok. Here we go.